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Coeur d'Alene, Idaho, United States
Karen is a yogini, writer, student, teacher and meditator. She founded Garden Street School of Yoga in 2000. Karen lives with her husband Chris. They have two amazing sons, Eli and Leo (both of them young men).

Mar 24, 2010

Up in the Air - Or Not

Today is Wednesday and I'm getting ready to go out of town - or not. My mom's health is in a critical place - or not. And so my travel plans are up in the air. I may be be up in the air - on a flight to Phoenix tomorrow morning - or not.

I had scheduled to spend Thursday through Monday midday on a yoga study and meditation retreat with Paul Muller Ortega. Then spend Monday through Thursday midday on my own personal writing retreat. After which I would spend Thursday through Monday with my teacher Lee Lozowick - for the April celebration.

But now I am waiting until the last minute to decide if I will go at all. And if I do go I may just go for the first 5 days. So I simultaneously packing for O days (easy)- or 5 days (add Yoga and Meditation "gear")- or 8 days (add Laptop)- or 12 days (add work clothes, celebration-type clothes, sleeping bag and pillow).

Believe me
- I get it how unbelievably fortunate I am to even have this dilemma!

What was starting to make me crazy and anxious was the unkonwn-ness of everything. But now I am pretty calm.....just trying to be present with the current situation. I will either be on a plane or not. I am feeling just fine about not going anywhere at all but the thing is, it is really hard to tell which way things are going to go. Mom is definitely not well- she has been in the hospital about 10 days with pneumonia. But the minute we think it's really dire, she rallies. And the minute she rallies, and we think she's out of the woods, she tanks. It's just a more vivid version of the picture that has been Mom and Dad's reality for the last 3 years since Mom's stroke.

So - I'll be "out of office" - or not.


  1. I'm thinking of you and your family! Lots of love,

  2. Thinking about you and your family...

  3. Our thoughts and prayers are with you too.

    Lots of love,
    Olive & Ed

  4. Thinking of you and your family and sending Love!